It is not that there is anything peculiar to you in these difficulties; every sadhaka entering this Way has to get over similar impediments.
It took me four years of inner striving to find a real Way, even though the Divine help was with me all the time, and even then it seemed to come by an accident; and it took me ten more years of intense Yoga under a supreme inner guidance to find the Way—and that was because I had my past and the world’s Past to assimilate and overpass before I could find and found the future.
Ref: Letters on Himself and the Ashram